Most people think experience gives us answers, but what happens when our experience fails to answer our questions? When it makes it impossible to continue believing what we know.
That’s what happened to Dr Patterson Stark.
Patterson was a successful physician in La Jolla, California. He had a waiting list, money in the bank and a shiny Mercedes in the garage. By every visible measure, he had built the life that a medical career promised.
Then in a single day, everything that had previously said “success” became worthless.
He had cancer in his testicle and more than twenty tumours in his lungs. And the cure wasn’t working either: thirteen rounds of heavy chemotherapy were causing his kidneys and liver to fail. One infection could end his life.
It wasn’t just his body that was failing him; it was everything he knew. He was the doctor who knew how to heal people, but now he couldn’t heal himself.
Patterson beat his cancer. But he didn’t return to practice. Instead, he migrated to New Zealand and spent sixteen years trying to answer a single question: “How do I make this humble vessel a little more impervious to disease?”
He explored soil chemistry, herbology, Ayurveda, Chinese medicine, and Daoism. And crucially, he began experimenting on himself; observing his own body in ways that no patient could have described to him. The doctor became the patient and the subject. He was learning from his own first-hand experience.
Patterson eventually returned to medicine. Not to resume his old practice, but to create a new one. He became a pioneer in Lifestyle Medicine.
We often assume that pioneers set out to change the world. But I no longer think that’s true.
Pioneers are created when their experience exposes the limits of what they know. Some defend the old explanation, while others pursue the unanswered question.
Patterson followed the question, and that changed not only what he knew, but how he came to know it.
This is experience at its most disruptive. It doesn’t just add to what we know; it interrupts it. It exposes the mismatch between the models we’ve adopted and the reality we’re actually living.
That interruption forces a choice: defend the old explanation, or follow what the experience is actually pointing toward.
Most of us, most of the time, defend.
The pioneers (the people who genuinely change their fields) are usually those who couldn’t. Their experience made the old answers impossible to keep believing.
Experience doesn’t tell us who to become. It simply reveals that who we’ve been is no longer enough.
What unanswered question has your experience been pointing you toward but that you haven’t yet followed?
This is Field Note #11. Field Notes are observations from my ongoing enquiry into experience. To learn more about how to make the most of your experience, read more Field Notes and Dr Patterson Stark’s insights. Read these posts next:
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